I feel distant, and Google Maps aren't helping. I used to get very calm when I looked at maps. I even know how to navigate on the sea, something my father showed me when I was little. At least I like to pretend I still remember how. Now maps show me only distance. Distance from me to you. Distance from then to now. Distance from who I was and what I have become.
It's nothing wrong with being away for a long time. I have been away for 4 years. It helps you to figure yourself out. But now, right now, there is not a doubt in my mind that the time is right to go back home.